Happiness. Joy. Laughter. Things we overlook, misplace and sometimes replace in our busy lives. Things that seem so simple to find but are often lost. Things that had gone missing in my life leaving clouds over my sunshine and emptiness in my soul.
This past year was a tough year for me. At times I felt like I had been through a war. I was wounded, exhausted, shell-shocked and overwhelmed by the battles that raged on every side. I didn’t realize it at the time, but things were starting to slip away from me. My prayer life started to wane. I was losing my hope in love and relationships. My dreams were dying. And with them all the joy and happiness was disappearing from my life. I thought I was on the road to recovery. After all, my disposition seemed to be in a better place than it had been. But I still wasn’t happy. I was beginning to wonder if my heart had just grown numb and I felt “better” because I didn’t feel anything at all.
As the new year started, I wanted more than anything for it to be a different year. A year of rebirth and healing. A year of growth and renewal. I went into this year ready to get back on the train of life and start living again. Unfortunately, it hasn’t been as easy as I hoped it would be. It is a struggle to be joyful when you’ve been camping in the depths of despair. I feel a bit like I am re-learning how to live life. Part of that involves learning to laugh again, or genuinely smile at the little things in life. Learning to dance and sing again. Remembering to be joyful and find the beauty in life again. I’m sure it won’t be easy, but I’m hoping little by little to make a habit of joy.
As I embark on this journey towards joy, I hope you will as well! Make the world a brighter place. Share the gift of a smile with someone today. And let the Happiness Project… Begin!