My interview for the internship went extremely well despite a few hiccups and it seemed very positive. I just needed to get a job to tide me over until August when the internship was supposed to start. A lot easier said than done. Over the next couple months I received so many “thank you for your interest in our company, but we’ve decided to go a different direction” emails, including two for the theatre in Minnesota and in Denver and seemed to have just missed all the auditions or jobs for theatre in Colorado for the summer so it seemed more and more like my life was standing still while the waters of life continued to rise around me. But, it was in the midst of these storms that God began to whisper to me a new dream, or rather, a new name for the dream started in Kansas City and the dream whispered to me years ago.
Admittedly, it was frustrating and depressing at times to keep running into closed doors all around, but, all those closed doors seemed to keep pushing me toward the one door God wanted me to go through–staring my own theatre company. Shortly after coming back home, I started reading Mark Batterson’s book “The Circle Maker”, a book he wrote before writing “Draw the Circle”, another book I have enjoyed delving into over the past few years. Both are excellent books and books I highly recommend.
Both books explores the idea of circling our prayers and not being afraid to pray for the dreams God places on our hearts. In one of the first few chapters of “The Circle Maker”, he talks about the journey of his church and how he felt led to literally circle an are in Washington D.C. by doing a prayer walk around it and how that area he circled now includes their church as well as their coffee house. While reading that, I felt God laying the name of the place I attended elementary and high school on my heart as the theatre space He was giving me (I know, sounds crazy, but God works in mighty and mysterious ways!) Much like Mark, I felt God was wanting me to encompass the school in a prayer walk, but found many excuses not to go up there and do it for weeks, even though it is only about 10 minutes from my house. But, I kept praying and thinking a lot about it and eventually made a point to go up there, and I’m so glad I did!
Even though life is still very much in the air and uncertain, it has been incredible to see the hand of God work in and through the circumstances in my life these past months and year, and even throughout the course of my entire life! The past few months have brought people and contacts across my path that at the time may have seemed strange or coincidental but seem to be taking shape as plausible pieces to this theatre company. People and places I never expected to reconnect with are coming back into my life and I am being introduced to people and venues, I never expected! I am truly humbled and in awe of the events taking place in my life and the incredible ideas that keep flowing through my mind that must be God-ideas, because I definitely would have never thought of these things on my own.
As promised, I will include a brief summary of some of the theatre stuff that has been brought across my path recently. A few weeks ago I auditioned for a small community play near my house and ended up getting cast in the show as well as being asked to be assistant director. I also had an interview this week for a position with a local theatre company called Magic Moments. They are a wonderful company that has continued to grow in prestige and reputation over the years and is the only theatre I know of that provides a theatre experience for people with special needs and disabilities. You should definitely take time to look at their website!
They have a documentary airing at the end of the month that you should definitely watch as well! It is definitely a far more qualified and prestigious theatre than I was expecting when I went into the interview so I don’t know if I even have a chance of getting on for their spring show, but learning about this company in the interview was an unforgettable experience in itself!
And finally, the summation of this posting, things seem to be moving forward and coming together to continue with the dream of starting a theatre company. I admit, I am sad that this dream didn’t continue with my friends in Kansas City, but it seems God has different plans for this dream. This dream has been taking shape in ways I never expected or imagined, and who knows, perhaps God will connect the two dreams or blend them together in a beautiful masterpiece down the road 🙂
I encourage all of you who read this to never give up on your dreams. It may seem like the dream is ending or changing beyond recognition, but it could simply be God taking a different direction. God gives us dreams and passions for a reason. Don’t be afraid to follow them!