Fairy Tales in life

Sometimes the fairy tale stories we dreamed of living don’t always turn out the way we wanted or expected. Sometimes what you wish for turns out to be what you didn’t want and what you truly want isn’t what you wished for. Dreams of a grand castle and parties and princes turns into a nightmare full of emptiness and loneliness. Hopes of beauty and youth come with consequences that sometimes become irreversible and dangerous. Desires for adventure and excitement can lead you down a path that is dark and dim and full of wolves waiting to devour those who wander down those paths. In fairy tales we see and read about, we often only see the happily ever after but in missing the reality of life after the happily ever after, we are caught up in a world of dreams and wishes that don’t come true or crumble around us when the “happily” part of the ever after fades away. But, sometimes we need those fairy tales to give us the hope that there is good and happiness in the world and that the bleakness in this world isn’t all that bad.

If any of you reading this know me, you know that I love stories, especially fairy tales, and I love it when those stories are told well either through words on a page or through actors on the stage or film. Something you may or may not know about me is that I also love finding the similarities in those stories to life and love to see those comparisons come to life in a real and wonderful way. Theatre is, after all, a reflection of life. But I would go one step further to say that stories in general are a reflection of life. That’s why we tell them. To share our life’s journey with others that they may fare better on the journey or be encouraged when their story seems to be in a tail spin.

There are a couple of movies that have come out in the past few months, both fairy tales (of course ☺ ) that have come at a much needed time in my life. “Into the Woods” and “Cinderella” were both filled with stories that were well-written and well-told. I love “Into the Woods”, one because I’m a complete theatre geek and it is brilliant, but the main reason I love it is the story, or rather stories, it tells. It paints the picture of a journey that must be taken into the woods to retrieve what the characters need to fulfill their wishes. It is not an easy journey but on this journey, each character learns many things about themselves and about the world. They all get their seeming happy ever afters but what they thought they wanted isn’t always what it seemed and when the light becomes dim and the way becomes dark, their tales take a different twist. The light of reality almost shines brighter in the dimness of their crumbling tales and makes them realize a lot what they wished for isn’t what they wanted but they are all better for the journey they had to take. As I said, I love this story because it is such a reflection of life and the journeys we have to take sometimes into the woods. Some of you know some of the things that have been going on recently in my life and I admit I have felt very much like I am in the midst of my journey through the woods. I’ve wished a lot of things throughout my life and sometimes the most disappointing thing is to find that when you get the thing you wished for the most and went on a journey into the woods to get, it’s the one thing that you don’t really want. You feel like you have been left with a crumbling dream that turns into a nightmare. But, that nightmare isn’t the end of your journey, but simply something you must go through to truly discover who you are and what it is you truly wish for. I love the words of the (almost) final song.
“Careful the things you say, Children will listen. Careful the things you do, children will see and learn. Guide them along the way, children will glisten. Children will look to you for which way to turn, to learn what to be. Careful before you say, listen to me, children will listen.
Careful the wish you make, wishes are children. Careful the path you take, wishes come true. No free. Careful the spell you cast, not just on children. Sometimes the spell you cast, not just on children. Sometimes the spell may last past what you can see, and turn against you. Careful the tale you tell, that is the spell. Children will listen.”

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SO many things in this show and song!! But, I digress. With things going on in my life, I felt I was in the midst of the darkest part of the woods in my story. I was losing site of the fairy tale God was, and is, writing with my life and getting caught up in the trap of the woods and believing that the fairy tales we dream of living were much like the stories told in “Into the Woods,” full of holes and the reality of not-so-happily ever afters. But, I love how God works in our lives at times. Just when times seem bleakest, He blesses us with a little ray of sunshine that reminds us of the happy part of the fairy tales we’re living and I found that glimmer of hope in the new “Cinderella” movie that recently came out in theatres. The story is well-known, but the telling of it was beautiful and added a reality and depth to the story that I never expected. It reminded me over and over again that fairy tales can still have happy moments and happy endings and not to give up on the fairy tale God is writing with my life. The song that was played during the end credits really hit home with me, so, because I am not only a theatre geek, I am a music nerd and lyric junkie, I am going to share them, in hopes that they help you on your journey through the woods as well. (and if you haven’t seen either of these films, GO SEE THEM!!!!)

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“In a perfect storybook, the world is brave and good.
A hero takes your hand, a sweet love will follow
But life’s a different game, the sorrow and the pain
Only you can change your world tomorrow.

Let your smile light up the sky,
Keep your spirit soaring high
Trust in your heart and your sun shines forever and ever
I believe in you and me
We are strong

When it “once upon a time” in stories and rhyme
A moment you can shine and wear your own crown
Be the one that rescues you
Through the clouds, you’ll see the blue
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A bird alone on the wind
Can still be strong and sing
Sing…

Let your smile light up the sky,
Keep your spirit soaring high
Trust in your heart and your sun shines forever and ever
I believe in you and me
We are strong

Transplanted Dreams Part 2

My interview for the internship went extremely well despite a few hiccups and it seemed very positive. I just needed to get a job to tide me over until August when the internship was supposed to start. A lot easier said than done. Over the next couple months I received so many “thank you for your interest in our company, but we’ve decided to go a different direction” emails, including two for the theatre in Minnesota and in Denver and seemed to have just missed all the auditions or jobs for theatre in Colorado for the summer so it seemed more and more like my life was standing still while the waters of life continued to rise around me. But, it was in the midst of these storms that God began to whisper to me a new dream, or rather, a new name for the dream started in Kansas City and the dream whispered to me years ago.

Admittedly, it was frustrating and depressing at times to keep running into closed doors all around, but, all those closed doors seemed to keep pushing me toward the one door God wanted me to go through–staring my own theatre company. Shortly after coming back home, I started reading Mark Batterson’s book “The Circle Maker”, a book he wrote before writing “Draw the Circle”, another book I have enjoyed delving into over the past few years. Both are excellent books and books I highly recommend.

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Both books explores the idea of circling our prayers and not being afraid to pray for the dreams God places on our hearts. In one of the first few chapters of “The Circle Maker”, he talks about the journey of his church and how he felt led to literally circle an are in Washington D.C. by doing a prayer walk around it and how that area he circled now includes their church as well as their coffee house. While reading that, I felt God laying the name of the place I attended elementary and high school on my heart as the theatre space He was giving me (I know, sounds crazy, but God works in mighty and mysterious ways!) Much like Mark, I felt God was wanting me to encompass the school in a prayer walk, but found many excuses not to go up there and do it for weeks, even though it is only about 10 minutes from my house. But, I kept praying and thinking a lot about it and eventually made a point to go up there, and I’m so glad I did!

Even though life is still very much in the air and uncertain, it has been incredible to see the hand of God work in and through the circumstances in my life these past months and year, and even throughout the course of my entire life! The past few months have brought people and contacts across my path that at the time may have seemed strange or coincidental but seem to be taking shape as plausible pieces to this theatre company. People and places I never expected to reconnect with are coming back into my life and I am being introduced to people and venues, I never expected! I am truly humbled and in awe of the events taking place in my life and the incredible ideas that keep flowing through my mind that must be God-ideas, because I definitely would have never thought of these things on my own.

As promised, I will include a brief summary of some of the theatre stuff that has been brought across my path recently. A few weeks ago I auditioned for a small community play near my house and ended up getting cast in the show as well as being asked to be assistant director. I also had an interview this week for a position with a local theatre company called Magic Moments. They are a wonderful company that has continued to grow in prestige and reputation over the years and is the only theatre I know of that provides a theatre experience for people with special needs and disabilities. You should definitely take time to look at their website!

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They have a documentary airing at the end of the month that you should definitely watch as well! It is definitely a far more qualified and prestigious theatre than I was expecting when I went into the interview so I don’t know if I even have a chance of getting on for their spring show, but learning about this company in the interview was an unforgettable experience in itself!

And finally, the summation of this posting, things seem to be moving forward and coming together to continue with the dream of starting a theatre company. I admit, I am sad that this dream didn’t continue with my friends in Kansas City, but it seems God has different plans for this dream. This dream has been taking shape in ways I never expected or imagined, and who knows, perhaps God will connect the two dreams or blend them together in a beautiful masterpiece down the road 🙂

I encourage all of you who read this to never give up on your dreams. It may seem like the dream is ending or changing beyond recognition, but it could simply be God taking a different direction. God gives us dreams and passions for a reason. Don’t be afraid to follow them!

 

Transplanted Dreams Part 1

Those of you who have been following my blog, you know that I started blogging a few months ago to tell the story of a theatre company some friends and I were in process of starting in Kansas City. Though the story has taken unexpected turns, one of the biggest being me moving back to Colorado, God continues to write an incredible story with the dream He gave long ago.

I believe I mentioned it in my earlier blogs, but I have had a dream to start a theatre company for as long as I can remember. It has definitely been a dream I feel God implanted in my heart at a young age and a dream that He has continued to shape and craft into a story that would only be believable because of Him. Over the course of this past year, that dream began to take on a realistic form and was moving forward into fruition until recently when it became unexpectedly uprooted.

4 months ago, my life was turned upside down. In fact, it felt very much like I had been thrown into the midst of a tidal wave with no floaties and no life vest. I was faced with the unexpected decision of finding a new job, figuring out where to look for work, and even what state to live in. Many possibilities came up and it was confusing figuring out which direction God was trying to point me to. Internship in Minnesota, try to make it in New York, audition to be Disney princess in Florida, move to Oregon(dream place to live!), stay in Kansas City, move back to Denver. Like I said, many possibilities were discussed and prayed through. But, after much research and prayer, God seemed to open the door just a bit wider for Colorado when I was offered an interview for a stage management internship for the Denver Center for Performing Arts, one of the biggest theatre companies in Colorado. Things started moving forward for me to move back to Denver (I will spare you the hairy details of the whole process) and within a month I was back in my hometown looking to a bright future ahead of me! Or so it seemed….

(see Part 2)