I struggle with anxiety and doubt. Actually, I’ve been thinking about it and it seems that doubt leads to anxiety. Just as suffering produces endurance, and endurance produces character, and character produces hope, I feel doubt does just the opposite of that. It makes us believe we can’t carry on, which causes us to think about giving up, which leads to anxiety about everything in life and we end up a jumbled mess of uncertainty and confusion.
I’ve been thinking this week about how much of my thought are clouded with doubt and how I’ve lost sight of the power of the God who is in control. In thinking about this, the image of a bug-covered windshield came to mind
You’ve all been there(if you haven’t, you’ve never driven through Kansas in the summer time). You’re driving along and SPLAT, a bug meets your windshield. Soon another bug bites the dust. And another. And another. And, before long, you’re entire windshield is covered with bug juice and no matter how many times you’ve turned on your wipers to clean it off, it just smears their remains all over and makes what little visibility you had left zero. All you can do is keep driving to the next rest stop with a gas station where you can put some elbow grease into scrubbing the little buggers off.
Our walk, or drive, with God is like that at times. We’re going along, enjoying the scenery, rocking out to praise tunes, when SPLAT, a little flick of doubt about a situation hits the windshield. And SPLAT, another, “What if this” or “What if that.” And another. And another. And, before long, the entire windshield is covered to the point where you can no longer see the road in front of you. No matter how hard you try to wipe the doubts away and keep going, they only become messier and messier. Anxiety and panic begin to set in and we try to stay in control of our lives but in reality, we have no clue where we’re going and are starting to be a danger to ourselves and those around us. If we don’t stop soon, we may end up driving off a cliff and end up hurting ourselves or others who may have been on the road or in the car with us.
Sometimes we need to careen completely out of control to realize our need for God, but sometimes, we just need to pull over and let Him take the wheel. He is our Shepherd and loving Father and He will guide and lead us safely to our destinations. Even if there are bumps in the road or detours, or complete crashes, He is there with us every moment and He is in total control of every situation. Rest in the fact that He is far bigger than those little bugs on the windshield and He will get you through. You may not be able to enjoy the scenery right now, but you can use this time of blurred sight to refocus your eyes and heart on Christ and let Him take control.
“Let the peace of Christ rule your hearts… Continue steadfastly in prayer.” Colossians 3:15, 4:2